captin_vonni

1. What really truly makes you smile from the bottom of your heart?

Truly its seeing other people happy i'm really not a selfish person, i adore the small things and if i can make everyone around me truly happy then that would be perfect for me.

2. If you could bed anyone (other then your fit boyfriend) who would it be?
I know hes a bit old and everyone fancies him but johhny depp. omg i would do him in a heartbeat, but yeah i have a strange thing for older men i guess.

3. What made you get into gal in the first place?
It was kinda weird actually my ex was into japan and he introduce me to lolita and i was really facinated with that for a while i even own a lolita skirt and then i wanted to be sexy not cute so i found gyaru through that and it has boosted my confidence no end.

4. Best memory from the last 5 years?
ooo this is hard, i'd have to say sometime with my mum either going clubbing with her the first time or when we all went out for my 18th dressed as pirates.

5. A genie gives you three wishes, what do you ask for?

My mum to be happy [ paying off her bills and such], my boyfriend to live closer and some more money.

In case your wondering i didn't fall off the face of the planet heres my new blog:

www.romikitty.blogspot.com


i'm updating that pretty much everyday =]

cyaz x

Hmm lets see new year was spent me being stupid over steve i told him i loved him and that i didn't wanna be fuck buddys and then i was like forget it cause it seemed like i might loose him but he text me back saying we'll chat but i have to wait till sunday for that. I was actually in pain when  it was new year cramps and bad timing ey?!  so i went to bed bout 2-3 ish crying because i was in pain and the fact i thought i'd ruined it with steve. I'm really annoyed that none of my friends made an effort to see me when i was home, and that my family just annoyed or insulted me the whole time being home.

Now lets start with what i said i was going to do positive thinking-  i'm getting my tattoo done tomorrow and as nervous as i am, i'm really excited as well. When i get to uni i'm going to decorate my room so it reflects more of my personality like make it princessy - with my canopy and maybe some lace and bows but the main theme is black and pink ^-^. 

and thats it for now i'm back in staffs saturday woop so will update sometimes saturday or maybe friday afternoon =] xxx

Well i thought i'd write it down as a mental note kinda thing.....
i want to carry on learning japanese since i stopped for a while,i also want to pick up french again.
i  want to join the gym so i can loose weight maybe a stone or two =]
i  want to get a job so i can travel alot, i'm going ibiza next year hopefully but i also want to vist france again and japan if i ever got the chance to.
I want to think more positively about life.
I want to improve my image in general.
I want to get my tattoo - that should defo happen =]
I want to get some circle lens' - also should happen. 
I want to get a digi cam- and maybe bling it out
I want to get my phone on contract and maybe bling that out too.

All in all i want to improve myself generally as a person not just with beauty but with intelligence as well, i'm definately going to try and read some more books as well =].

the end xx

Hey , long time no post, hmm well i now have blonde bits in my hair, uni life is one big party but when works hits you, you have to lock yourself in your room and eventually get cabin fever its not like it was hard work it was just because we haven't worked for so long.  I made a film about domestic violence that had to be exactly three minutes long that was very fun working on. I went to a uni full of guys so my drinks usually get paid for, i've made some friends that are absolute legends and there maybe a new partner on the line as i met a guy at a house party and well he's very nice however i'm scared my mum won't approve of him because i'm 18 and he's 24 - he works as a writer for a corporate magazine and also is a vocalist and guitarist in a couple of bands which is really nice - i tend to go for musicians but he gets on so well with all my friends and treats me right. He's coming down here which is like an hour drive away just to give me my christmas presents how sweet is that i was touched he'd make that much of an effort just to see me =] . hmm what else has uni life been about ooo you get ill alot and that is why i have started taking  multivitamins and eating lots of veg , i did turn vegetarian for two weeks but that caved in when my friends cooked me christmas dinner with alot of meat on. i'm going to try properly next semester, i'm also going to start my work earlier and not drink as much because i'm really scared i'll put weight on.

On another note, i'm really excited about christmas and spending time with my friends and family at home, i'm also thinking about getting a small tattoo on my back before i get my big one just above my hip.

if you want to see any of my uni photos - look on facebook and type in chavonne rudd to find me and all the uni photos are on tagged photos. x

moving on sunday :|  i'm excited and now prepared to move but i'm just sad to leave my family as i've always been close to em ... but its like growing up lol - my plan is unpack sunday daytime and party at night =] cause my first lecture doesn't start until 11.30 am monday =] - oh yeah cause u guys love to know about my hair i dyed it back to dark brunette the reddy purple colour faded to an orange =\  so back to sexy dark brunette getting layers and stuff cut in tomorrow morning then wedding in the afternoon and partying at night lol .... then its moving sunday .... i'm packing away my laptop tonight so i probs won't be in touch until sometime in the next week i should suspect =] x

well hmm lets update i'm so close to going out with eddie ... you just know instinct lol - umm my ex is still being immature even though hes going out with a 16 yr old hes spreading rumours that i slept with 3 people and that i'm like a village bike =[ .... so i have one of his friends sorting him out for me..... in postive news my uni stuff is slowly coming together even though i'm still nervous as anything..... and i designed my tattoo that i think i wanna get on my hip i'm not totally sure .... the flowers will be black and white though.... it represents my past and how i've over come the bad things that have happened in my life =] . opinions?!

I don't really have anything interesting to say apart from its two weeks till i go to uni and i'm starting to get worried since i have nothing and it makes me feel scared and sick lol ... my mum is gunna help me though she says i have to make a list for her to buy me things and she'll put a tenner a week on my phone and maybe pay for a tv licence .... this is why i love my mum =]. 

oh for those of you wondering what my hair looks like this is probs one of the best pics i have i'm with my best mate rissa ..... 


as you can see its not very purple more reddy brown than purple =[  please be ignoring the stupid face i'm pulling

I'm going to staffordshire university in september.... oh yeah! my ex wanted me to fail and not go to uni as he is going there but i passed a message on to his friends to say i'll see him there muhahaha! 

i'm so happy ! oh yeah i'm getting purple streaks in my hair =]  its my treat to myself for passing x

Well went out friday was awesome went to mosh with a few mates , bumped into the ex he didn't take it well that i might have been seeing someone but i'm not because i got bored of him always saying i love u and he barely even knew me. Also found out that the ex calls me a whore on the uni trip but he can do everything with this sian girl but sex that is..... urgh it seems totally acceptable i got rid of him now. Also been chatting to ed alot going to see him next sunday should be fun can't believe i made an ass outta myself by telling him a load of stupid stuff but he seems to be alright with me, we've been flirting loads and he says he likes me so i kinda hope something does happen =] but i won't get my hopes up.... hmm i went to work hungover and tired today and almost knifed a customer not on purpose i just threw it onto the tray carelessly but back at home now ... the ex doesn't wanna be friends or see my face ever again i dunno weather thats good or bad and thats about it plans for sunday lie -in , working monday nd tuesday , results thursday, alton towers or drayton manor in between we'll go to both and then bradgate park depending on the weather for home made  ice cream =] . 

xxx

Well weekend was weird ... i broke up with hayden due to his immature behaviour and pure neglection. Then we went to stafford the next day he was all over a girl but i met a guy in my group from nottingham and ended up spending all my time at stafford with him... especially at night in the bar haha where he kept buying me drinks, i hardly slept and i love all the people i met there and hope they will all be there in september as it was blates amazing and all my friends i made were wicked and did u know u can still order pizza if ur the drunkest there as laurence found out he was well organized i would have photos but i didn't have a camera with me which is a shame xx<3

so my health isn't the greatest atm - since i was 4 i passed out from shock and stuff- having my belly button pierced, getting in a hot bath, any cuts that are pretty deep but only small these all trigger it. So i cut myself today on a tin or something looking for a voucher for cat biscuits in the recycle bag - i ran it under the tap and felt i was going dizzy so i sat down unfortunately i passed out but it was different this time and my brother freaked out luckily my mum was there - i went very stiff instead of loose like i usually do and i broke out in a sweat [hot] and after i woke up from passing out i felt really tired so my mum rang the doctor went to see the doctor and she said i just caught a bug and had a 'seizure' but after i slept at home i feel fine and have plenty of energy so i don't think the doctor was right to be honest. it just scares me also i can't carry on with my driving lessons for a month in case it happens again. 

Good news now i have an interview tomorrow for the catering department for captial one, i'm nervous but excited it should help me get more money for uni and means i can quit my job where i'm not getting the hours yay! it'd be my grans birthday tomorrow too she'd be a 100 so we're visting where she is scattered =] and then going for a meal- its always sad when we vist my gran but i believe shes still there watching us all =]. 


so thats it for now xx<3

So my 18th went well ate loads at the meal [red hot buffet shack] really nice food but i thought there would be more choice the mexican food was just nachos and the italian was just pizza there was more choice in indian and chinese =[ and there wasn't any japanese food at all i'll picture spam later. In the evening it was nice just some girls went out for a pirate themed birthday night even though it was a sunday still saw some people around - like a moron i forgot my ID luckily i had my mum to blag it for me =]. my hair is now quite umm ginger with brown bits in i'm gunna buy some more hairdye tomoz i've lived with it like this for a week so my hair could have a rest. In the week i went to birmingham with my boyfriend and his family i brought a 'rockerish' tee, some hello kitty pjs,white converse and exchanged my size five shoes for the right size i wore them out last night and they hurt a little but don't all new shoes?! =] so saturday i worked from 11am-5.10pm i was so tired but we were so busy at work it was unreal i was expecting like 2-3 hours work to be honest as that is what i have been getting recently.In the evening me and my boyfriend went out for a romantic night out we went to a chinese buffet place it was really nice i kept eating the duck pancakes yummy =]....but he had a few drinks with his mate afterwards and got really mean to me calling me mean and hideous and saying i always moan, it just hurt even more that he was staring at other girls whilst we were walking home with him going wooo! they're hot after he called me fatty-chan and this morning tried to say it was a joke. I got up this morning and he was tidying his room then proceeded to play on his games and guitar all day i might as well have gone home last night.... seems like nowdays all he wants me there is for company and sex he treats me like a friend with benefits ....i still give him the benefit of the doubt though. 


wooo i wrote a story for you- enjoy xx<3

Found out i'm working this weekend at 11 least i'm working - i've not been on the rota twice now does my head in =[ in other news my driving lesson went well =] and turns out my boyfriend won't be meeting his ex today but he want to meet up with beth again and his ex some other time (>.<) sometimes he does my head in arrrgh!!! and he didn't teach me japanese yesturday like he said he would but i got my sunbathing time in hehe. i've painted my nails yet again and i'm going to use my fake tan soon cause i want to look tanned on my birthday as a pirate =] . I've also become a bit of a mario addict recently with all this spare time i still cnt complete the first level though =[ FAIL!

 so the animation workshop went well even though i was the oldest there and i was with a group of lads who were arguing over what to do we made an animation bout a superhero but he wasn't a very good one it was pretty much slapstick humour was good =]. Saturday i had a girly day with my mum and went out shopping for my birthday present we went to all saints which is pretty expensive and i couldn't decide between the dress or the skirt so i brought both =] 
 the dress it looks better when its on =]

 the skirt  close up of the material 

sunday i just chilled out with my boyfriend watching tv we watched ghostbusters 2 how awesome =] and today i've not really done much got up and exercised 120 sit ups because i couldn't be bothered to go swimming it damages my hair too much but i must go back and start swimming again i forgot to weigh myself this morning =[ so i'll do that tomorrow and i went uptown to get my mums boots reheeled as she wants them for when we go out as pirates on my birthday which is now 6 days away eeee! 

Plans for the rest of the week:
Tuesday - see my boyfriend
Wednesday - driving lesson
Thursday- see my best mate alex
Friday- got friends coming round for tea =] 
Saturday-probably working [i need to ring work and check] 
Sunday[Mybirthday]- Go for a meal then in the evening drinking as pirates =]

got up weighed myself was disappointed with the numbers in front of me 142.6 lbs =[ i've put on 3 pounds in a week i've been eating healthy and exercising still even though i haven't had the chance to go swimming this week as i've been quite busy but due to this weight gain my jeans are getting tight and its horrible. today i just chilled with my boyfriend we tried to sync the wii controllers together but it didn't work =[ so we just watched tv yay! we made ramen for dinner it was yummy we named it student ramen because it was made with cheap instant noodles and we just kinda bunged the ingredients in. Then i went for my driving lesson it went okay to be honest yay! then my boyfriend went home so i got bored and wanted to paint my nails here is the result: 
 black tips with sparkley white glitter base even though my phone didn't pick up the sparkles =] [they are my real nails]

and then after doing my nails i decided to try and piece together what i might wear tomorrow whilst working with the bbc in an animation workshop =] always need to look good hehe and i think i might have my hair curly but apparently its going to rain =[ booo .

 

so plans for the weekend are as follows: go to workshop with bbc tomorrow then meet my boyfriend come back to mine. Saturday i'm going to go shopping with my mum at all saints for my birthday present [ birthday 6th july] and then i'm gunna come home relax and learn japanese with my boyfriend and sunday well thats just relaxing isn't it =]. 

i'll update you on everything and take a picture of whatever i buy from all saints =]

Tuesday 24th

went into town met my boy handed out some cv's, my boy traded in his 360 for a wii we played on that a bit and i won bowling and he taught me my first lesson of japanese =] it was good then we ate and i went home i was sad i didn't get to spend much time with him to be honest. i also brought a pair of denim shorts for £2.50 cause internacionale are having a closing down sale.

Wednesday 25th

today i met up with my best friend nomie, she had to get her hair done since it is her birthday tomoz so i sat two hours in the hairdressers chatting to her after that we went to nando's mmm yummy she was dead excited and she opened her card even though her birthday is tomorrow and said thank you and that i didn't have to get her anything because i put a tenner in her card for drinking money hehe. Then we went in all saints and drooled over clothes we couldn't afford, then we looked at all the nice shoes in faith =]. Then we headed to internacionale as they we're having a 75% sale and i brought a black waistcoat and a nice three tiered top in white with a little black corsage pinned to it and both of those cost me £1.25 :O i'm still looking for a white pair of heels and a plain white t-shirt with a nice cut =]. It was really nice spending time with her then i got back home and my mum began moaning and i just wanted to cry cause it seemed like she was blaming everything on me =[ but we had tacos and mexican food makes me happy =] thats about it for today. 

x

MONDAY 23RD 

seriously... today i did nothing so i was pretty down, i woke up to my old best mate in my house how scary is that.... we had a chat and everything but i was like i look shit all the time but he made me happy by saying i'd lost weight since the last time he saw me =] . Then i spoke to my boyfriend on msn and it was like oh i'm going to meet my ex in bristol on july 2nd[ this is 4 days before my birthday for those who don't know] and his ex still fancies him and hes going on about how excited he is and everything i just feel like hes going to cheat on me before my birthday that would be so depressing. Anywhom i watched lords of dogtown on dvd after that to cheer me up nothing like a good skateboarding movie and a cup of tea can't solve hehe reminds me of movies nights with memma. And then tonight i went to watch the happening it was a pretty good film actually weird ending but crappy dialogue it makes you think, worth watching in my opinion =]. 

thats it for now i'll update soon x

FRIDAY 20TH

so i did my exam in the morning cramming as much as i can into my head the morning of the exam, some of the questions we;re quite hard but i wrote quite a bit for it. Then i went home and just chilled out with my boyfriend i don't even remember what happened on friday to be honest it seems so far away now. 

SATURDAY 21ST

Today i had work at 11.30am i didn't wanna go cause it was raining and such and i just felt like crap but i still went i got a lift off my mum and was a little late to work because of traffic but they didn't say anything =] , i was working until 5.45pm i was really happy because atleast i got a load of hours in the most i've ever work even if i did want to collapse at the end of the shift it was just such a tiring day and i find out i'm not on the rota for work again next weekend grr. Then i got home fed me nd my boyfriend, then i went in the shower to get rid of the attractive muffin smell i had gained from work. Then it was about 11pm and we watched clockwork orange =] then we were both pretty knackered and went to bed, only to be woken up by my mother at 2.30 in the morning asking why i didn't let her in, i didn't get back to sleep till bout 5 in the morning grrr.

SUNDAY 22ND

Today has been one of those lazy days where u just stare at the tv haha, i had dinner then it was about 4pm and i took my boyfriend back home and visted my uncles and then came home and ate chinese mmmm. Still quite tired but i have forever to sleep now =] since i left college and my full fringe has started to go into my eyes so i moved it to the side and this is what it looks like. 
 now i'm not sure whether i should cut my full fringe back in or leave it as a side fringe? [yes i know i always seem to be wearing this green hoody when i take photos but its comfy and warm] 

laters x

So upon my attempt of revising i found out we haven't done much on documentary which is worth the most marks =[ so i'm watching super size me to help. I went driving today and she says i'm getting better i just need to get better at checking in my mirrors and being aware of people around me. I applied for the gal-cir booteek but they're all the way down in london and i don't know if they'll accept an aspiring gal.... i'll give it ago and try to attend meet-ups when i can. Tomorrow is my last day of exams then i'm Finally FRRRRRREEEEEEEEEE! yeah i get bored of people cause all the people at my college are drama llamas and to wrapped up in their own lives to be good friends. Hmm speaking of drama its gone down in big brother,uk, alex has threatened the other housemates that she'd get her gangster friends to hurt other housemates friends and family so she got removed from the big brother house meaning no eviction tomorrow. 

The weekend instore: spending time with my boyfriend,might go swimming, learning para para,work on saturday stupid muffin place! and sunday just chilling =] 

will update about the weekend later on 
oh heres how i did my hair today its an old picture though everyone says it flatters my face: 
 basically its a little cut poof bun and here i put a floral hairband round for decoration =]
peace out x